When God Pulls US Back To Him
Do you ever go through a time when your faith drifts a bit? I
recently did. The alarm would go off on Sunday mornings and I would rather sleep in than go to church. I did my daily Bible devotion, but it was more out of routine than out of building my relationship with God. I prayed, but often I wasn’t trusting God to answer my prayers. I was in a “Christian rut” – you might say. I was becoming complacent and lazy in my walk with God.
Then something happened in my life that was out of my control. I had a fear that my daughter was sick – really sick. I took her to the doctor and they said everything was fine, but she had a symptom of this terrible illness that I just couldn’t shake. I was worried sick. She is my baby and I couldn’t stand the thought of anything happening to her. The worrying went on for about a month and recently got worse. I would worry myself sick, Google her symptoms, worry some more, Google the illness, worry some more…
In the midst of worrying I would occasionally pray. I would pray that God would keep her healthy and take the worries away from me. But when I said these prayers, I didn’t 100% trust that He could do it. I was too focused on my worries and not focused enough on Him.
Then, earlier this week, my worries completely hit another level. I was getting no sleep, crying, fighting with my husband because he couldn’t understand why I can’t let this go and trust God.
Then something else happened – yesterday morning to be exact. I got in my car and turned on the local Christian station. I was a worried, exhausted mess. However, when I turned on the radio a message was being read about how no matter what is going on with our children, we must trust God. He knows what’s best and will do what’s best – even if His best is not what we choose. The broadcasters were reading a story about how a parent’s son died at an early age. The parents were saying how although their heart aches for him every single day, they knew God had a reason for taking him early. There was something on this earth that he did not want him to go through – a reason He wanted the boy to be in Heaven with Him.
When I heard this message, tears started streaming down my face. I knew God was speaking to me and telling me to trust Him. If these parents, who have lost their child can have faith and give God glory, then surely I can trust God with my parenting worries. Then, I checked my email and read my In Touch devotion by Charles Stanley, and it was talking about how we need to trust God through trials.
If this isn’t the definition of God speaking to someone, then I don’t know what is. I prayed throughout the day that God would take this burden from me and that His will be done. Last night, I had a peace that came over me that surpassed all understanding. I knew that my child is ultimately His and he will take care of her no matter what in His own way and His timing. I still have that peace and trust that God will be with me throughout her and my unborn baby’s life, no matter what may happen in the future.
My daughter turned out to be perfectly fine – I know my worries were most likely the result of a mother’s over-protection, but even in the small chance that she or my unborn son have any type of future health issue, I know God will be with me and my husband every step of the way. I’ve learned through this experience to let Him take my burden from me and trust him.
I also have been pulled back to God and am no longer complacent in my relationship with Him. I feel like God used this trial to pull me back to where I need to be in my Christian walk with Him. Sometimes He will use trials to do that for us. So even in trials and hard times, I give God all the glory!
For God says:
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 2 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 3 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” – Matthew 11:28-30
“And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” – Phillipians 4:7